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{On A Serious Note}

 

I don’t usually open up much about my personal life on this blog, because frankly, readers come to Review Blogs to read reviews about books they’re interested in, or to discover new books that they might enjoy. I know that most readers don’t want to visit a blog full of off-topic ramblings.

However, it’s come to the point where I feel I need to be a little more open and honest with you, my dear readers.

I, like so many other people in this world, suffer from Clinical Depression, as well as severe Social Anxiety and Agoraphobia.

Over this past year, my depression, which up to that point had been fairly well managed, has gotten the best of me. I find my To Be Read pile is completely overwhelming, and more often than not, I find myself just wanting to do pretty much anything rather than curl up with a book, no matter how interesting the book sounds to me.  When I do feel like reading, I find myself reaching for old favorites — ones that I’ve read and reviewed before — simply because I don’t have it in me any longer to invest in a new story with all of its unexpected twists and turns.

I am currently under the care of a wonderful, patient, and understanding psychiatrist who is helping me to make great strides out of the bottomless pit of despair that is Depression, and we’re currently working on getting me back to a point where I will once again enjoy delving into my book shelves and losing myself in whatever fictional world happens to be my destination.

So to my readers, I am incredibly  sorry that I haven’t been bringing you timely content about romance novels that I think you would enjoy. I am a work in progress, and while that progress may be slow going, I am making progress, and I ask that you please be patient with me as I journey to rediscover my love of reading and reviewing.

To the authors who have been so patient and understanding when it takes me months to actually read the books they’ve requested reviews for, and even longer to sit down and write the reviews — Thank you. Throughout this entire ordeal, the authors in my network have been nothing but supportive, understanding, and kind, and I appreciate it much more than you could ever know.

To anyone reading this who may be going through something similar in their lives, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. I know that sometimes or even most of the time it feels as though there is no way out of the darkness, but please know that you don’t have to be in the dark alone. Depression is a liar and a thief, making you believe all sorts of horrible things, ruining any self-esteem that you may have once had, and stealing the joy from what was once your favorite activities. Though I know you most likely cannot see it now, it does get better.    I, and thousands, even millions, of other people know exactly what you’re going through, and together, we can get through this.

While I, myself, have been blessed enough to find the help that I need locally, and do not personally use these services, I ask that any of my readers who are beginning to feel that it’s all just too much, please  reach out to someone before you do anything harmful to your physical or emotional health.  If you’re in the U.S., you can call 1-800-273 TALK (8255) any time of day or night to speak to a crisis counselor who can help you.  Alternately, if you’re like me and despise talking on the phone, there are several crisis chat resources that you can access. The Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available for chat 24/7, as is IMAlive.org.

I do hope that you, my beloved readers, will continue to follow me, subscribe to my email updates, or even just occasionally pop in to see if there is any new content to peruse.

But most of all, I want you all to know that I am extremely thankful for every single person who stops by this blog, and while I can make no promises at this point, I will be making a concerted effort to restore this blog to active status.

 

All my love,

                        Jess